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i hate the world i live in. my mom said i was useless
again. ha, i would get it if i didn't do anything for her...
but i do. i do her fxcking nursing homework. wtf ?! D<
she's freaking 46 years old making a 14 year old
do it. i'm sorry but that is really stupid. want to know what's worse?
she got the answers from her classmate and making ME
rephrase every single thing. fascinating, yeah?
i'm sorry but without me, she really wouldn't be
passing her nursing class because i've done MOST
of the work that she NEEDS. so i don't think
"useless" is the right word to describe me. she is really wow.
she's the one who DOES NOT think! and she tells me
that i DONT. the simplest things ever. how to delete stuff
when typing. uhm hello there's the delete button
and backspace button. how to print stuff. um yeah print button too.
i'm sorry. call me mean if you want but i hate being called
useless when i actually do stuff for that person.
i hate being called stupid when i am the reason
that person is PASSING that class. i hate it even more
when i get yelled at for no reason. my mom is like wow.
the person i despise the most, seriously. i wouldnt live
with her if i didn't have my friends here. if i didn't have
friends here, i would've decided to go with my dad a long
time ago. no wonder he couldn't stand her after like
3 years of marriage. i hate it more when she tells me
that she told me this or that when she didnt!
& then tells me i never pay attention and that
i should get off the comp. then she orders me to do
her homework anyways when she says never mind.
seriously. what the fxck is up with that?!
she tells me that i should teach her and i try to
but she doesnt listen and just keeps going "what?"
really. that's immature for someone THAT OLD.
i dont think she knows the meaning of teach.
for me to teach, she needs to listen. one reason
why i dont disrespect my teachers, i know how it freaking
feels.
&& oh yeah. she wrote a letter to her teacher saying
i "helped her" do her assignment[do this huge long outline ever.]
i hate LYING! i didnt help her. I DID IT
FOR HER! i was FORCED to, or else... i wouldnt be online right now -.-"
&& all my friends know about this.
and they also dislike their moms and they even
dislike my mom more. my mom is that
bad of a mom. then again the first 8 years of my life,
she was never there for me so why do i expect her
to change now? hmmm, really. idk. i thought
she would be better when she finally married
the guy she truly loves.[2003] but then it got worse.
when they fought she even said that he has
freaking hidden desires for me. i'm like wtf?!
he's 50 years old O.o and why'd she marry him then?!
honestly, i love my stepdad more.
no doubt. he can get mad but he's more understanding.
[although he thinks i'm weird for crushing on
asian celebrities~ the rest, we're good.]
&& when i'm sick he takes care of me.
my mom... she says its my fault and she always
say she'll bang my head on the wall if i ever
get sick... meaning she would kill me if i ever
got some disease. nice to know isnt it? -.-"
aish~ sorry for being so emotional, f-list.
i just cant handle her anymore. when i reach 18 years old.
i would LOVE to leave! ahh someone make me happy.
my best friend kinda left me.
so i'm sad about that too. she says
she's still my best friend but i dont
feel that. she doesnt even call me.
talk to me online. nada. ever since
school started this year and her BF started
to go to her school [he was homeschooled].
seriously. she must be super naive if she cant
tell how distant we are now.
then ahhh~ the guy i like is so weird x]
he makes me happy but i wish he'd just
tell me who he likes like he always does..
but now he wont say who which is making
me have my hopes go up :p
ahhhh! ~ f-list, make me happy please xD
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