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rawrminax3
17 July 2010 @ 10:14 pm
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 I would just like to say

Happy Birthday to [info]stupidfiish & [info]xoxobgrl717 !

I hope you two have a lovely & enjoyable birthday ;D
Many more birthdays to come & may you receive a ton of
love ;D
 
 
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rawrminax3
15 July 2010 @ 11:24 pm
Oh, you're so yummy (;

Lee Donghae's photoshoot = Absolute Love (;
Did you guys see it ?! You have got to if not (: His pictures were all up on my dashboard on Tumblr !
That's all I have to say right now~ kekeke. I'm still not at home :p I'll be home tomorrow ! :D
I will read your guys' livejournal. Sorry. This came out of nowhere :p I didn't think I'd have to
sleep over someone's house to keep the company THIS LONG T------T I really REALLY
miss home.

 
 
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rawrminax3
01 July 2010 @ 10:35 am
 
Happy Birthday to the one and only Park Jungsu /Lee Teuk/ The Angel without wings / The Everlasting Leader! :D I hope and pray that many more birthdays and blessings come your way (: You are without doubt a great leader, a caring hyung, and a genuine person. May you stay strong physically and mentally. I know you can get through the obstacles in life, hun <3 You are surrounded by people who simply love and adore you (; Saranghae <3

 
 
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Current Music: Angels Cry - Mariah Carey ft. Ne-Yo
 
 
rawrminax3
 Almost nine months of a crazy roller coaster and etc. No, I am not giving up on love. I still believe in love (: I don't think every guy in this world are jerks. I just think they're rare. Yup, you guys have guessed it. Ejay and I are officially over. This time, there's no chances of getting back together since he has no more feelings for me. I think I'm losing it too. I don't hate him. I still have so much love for him--- as a best friend? (x Honestly, I want to hate the guy. I can't though. He's Ejay. I just love him like that. As his ex girlfriend, I slightly have hatred for him XD As his best friend before that, I slightly regret going out with him. Now, we can't really go back to the amazing best friends tandem we were. 

I'll probably still be slightly jealous of other girls trynna make a move on him. Why? Cause he was mine once. He was mine first (x He has a ton of girls after him and I have nobody. My self esteem went down even more. It's like the feeling I wasn't good enough. I want to say I'm perfectly fine, but I'm not. I want to say it's not a big deal, but to me it is. My first relationship. My first ever guy best friend turned boyfriend turned I don't even know anymore. 

2010 is already crazy. I hope to meet many amazing people who will become my friends. I prefer boys but girls would be fine too (x I'm not saying I'm already looking for another boyfriend because no, I'm not. I'm not mentally prepared for that but I'm currently vulnerable. Anyone is welcome to walk into my heart. I actually want a guy best friend who I won't fall for at all and he won't fall for me kinda thing. Like I want that perfect chemistry I have with Marissa. I want to have the same chemistry with a guy and yet not be in love. 
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Current Music: Incomplete;Jay x Junsu
 
 
rawrminax3
05 January 2010 @ 09:21 pm
I love Ejay and never did my feelings waver. We got back together which was suppose to be our 8th monthsary, and he wants it to count although we weren't really together ;p I feel EXTREMELY different and it feels like I'm starting over and we're not best friends----when we really are? I really don't understand how I feel right now. I know I love him but I'm so scared now. I can't stay still and my heart is going crazy. I need to calm down. *sigh.* I will be going back to hiatus till summer vacation :| Sorry~ I'm a bad LJ friend, I know :| Tumblr is the way to go :D or Facebook so ask me (: 
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Current Music: Ejay talking over the phone :p
 
 
 
rawrminax3
31 December 2009 @ 11:32 am
 Well I don't really remember if today or yesterday since he hung up and it was already 12 am? or pass that~ So yeah. This is how I'm ending 2009, dear f-list. I'm ending it with me being single(: Ejay's too young and I should've known but I kept looking pass the age matter. Now we're over and I'm not feeling anything. I had enough of my crying earlier. I'm not happy but I'm not sad. I like to think that I'm "Happy" and I'm "okay" but that was my first relationship [: It was going to be 8 months on the 4th of January ~ He acts as if nothing's wrong so --- so am I :D I want to hate him so much because of the things he said. I never knew he could say such things. But that was only 2 sentences or so XD I mean, I've known him longer. I guess I think he's still a nice guy. I felt bad because he was my ONLY guy best friend. We have been for like 2 yrs now or so and then yeah~ We broke up once before and I cried more and was really sad, but this time around, NOTHING. It's like maybe it really isn't meant to be. Maybe we just happened and that's all there is to us. I still want to say I still love him as much as before but I would be lying I don't. I don't which makes me sad because he really was my best friend. He knew almost everything. Now I'm getting watery eyes T-----T I don't know if it's because I lost my first boyfriend or my one and only guy best friend who's been with me through everything. He did love me and take care of me , but according to him he "stopped" loving me 2-3 days ago XD Now I'm crying XD I feel terrible. I could've done better. I told my best friend I'm okay and I was until now. 
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Current Music: Broke Up Today;Younha
 
 
rawrminax3
21 December 2009 @ 10:52 am
 I was planning to return to LJ this 3 weeks of winter break but my heart does not feel good. I don't know how to happily comment others. I'm going crazy fandom wise. Real life wise? I lost a lot of friends. But I still have amazing ones. Christmas is soon=Ejay's birthday is also Christmas.I still have to buy him a present. && I need to get out to feel better. F-list, please forgive me :(
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rawrminax3
21 December 2009 @ 10:45 am
 That Super Junior will always remain the same Super Junior I came upon. I have faith in them. I will always have faith in them. No matter what happens, Super Junior, Fighting~!
 
 
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Current Music: Abracadabra;Brown Eyed Girls
 
 
rawrminax3
08 November 2009 @ 09:13 am

I'm FINALLY back on LJ :p But of course I'm still on hiatus :[ I finished homework last night so I have time to post today (: To everyone who had their birthday, while I was away; I'm sorry :[ Happy Super Duper Late Belated Birthday~ Recently; School has been driving me insane. I feel like my life is terribly boring 2/3 of the time :p I have nothing to talk about anymore :[ I'm not even up-to-date with my fandom! School, and Ejay are keeping me occupied :p Well Ejay only like 2 days a week :[ I wish I could see him everyday because he makes the problems go away. Oh that little boy <3 I haven't seen him for a whole week now because of this Pathfinders thing at a different church :p Plus his phone got confiscated because his mom is evil D: Since I've been gone; Things between me and Ejay have been------complicated because of his mom. She really dislikes me. I don't know why. I heard she use to like to me a lot before and always talked good about me. There's no reason for her to not like me now. She should be HAPPY that I'm TAKING CARE of her beloved son :p Since according to what I've observed and heard; She pays more attention to Ejay's younger brother than him :p


Oh noes~Collapse )
Yna loves you all (;
 
 
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Current Music: A Boy; Kwon Ji Yong <3 !
 
 
rawrminax3
01 October 2009 @ 05:41 pm
 SORRY!
Forgive me for not being on for the longest time here on Livejournal.
So much things have been going on in school and just life, itself.
It's October already, wohoo. To my dear f-list, if any of you wish to
take me off your f-list, feel free to do so :[ Please tell me first though so
I won't look for you guys :| I'm on a lot actually. On the computer but
just listening to music or on facebook or tumblr but all those posts
are not as meaningful or long as my posts here in livejournal. I just
don't have the time anymore to keep typing about my life :[ Once again,
I am deeply sorry. Plus I've been less of a fangirl since this school year started.
School is really stressing. I guess I can't balance everything out well :[
If any of you want to keep in contact with me, I do have a MSN now, a YM, aim,
gmail, facebook, and tumblr. Plus twitter. Feel free to ask me for any of
those in this entry.
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Current Music: If Ever You're In My Arms Again;Sam Milby&Toni Gonzaga